Okay it is May 11. We are already eleven days into May and I have went out and ran once. ONCE. To my defense it has been raining a lot and then I got sick. I didn't want to take the kiddo out in the rain and then I was sick so I didn't leave the couch.
I am not sure if I will be able to get all the miles done but I am going to try.
on a different note...
does anybody else out there have a problem with keeping up with the Jones'? I know I sure as heck do. I will use this little tiny blog as an example. I read all these other blogs and it seems like everybody has their crap together. Do I have my crap together? No sirree bob. I almost always have a running dialogue in my head of what I would write in a blog post about me doing something. Then I start thinking about it. Then I realize everyone and their mom has done that it is totally lame.
I have this horrible habit of wanting to the best and being the best at everything. It is such an struggle for me. So here I am wanting to do something + me trying to be freaking perfect X getting overwhelmed = not doing anything. I hate that freaking equation. I hate writing it down. It is super embarrassing. Plus, i feel like a total phony. Not that I am fake really but I just only letting you see a glimpse of everything. I am not sure how to change the whole problem but I think clearing the air will be a good start. From here on out I am going to be honest with you and with myself.
here we go...
-i breastfeed. I am proud of myself that I have made it almost to a year. Especially with how hard it was in the beginning and people telling me i couldn't do it and that i wouldn't be giving my child enough. Honestly and truthfully the main reason I didn't quit was because people told me i couldn't do it. we didn't have the money for bottles and formula. I hate doing dishes. All of those things combined I had to breastfeed. A bonus was how good it is for lil' man. I hate that I feel like I have to defend why I breastfeed or that I have to make other people feel better about themselves if they formula fed. Ya know what I don't care. As long as you take care of your kid. I don't really care what you do. You do you... I'll do me.
-we cloth diaper.Main reason we are cheap. Lil' man could only use pampers so it was pricey. We switched to cloth and use them part time/majority of the time. Pro it helps the environment.
- i make baby food. again I'm cheap. that is all there is to it.
- with all these things that I do for lil' man. It drives me batty that I feel like I have to defend myself constantly so others don't think I am crazy. or that I am trying to be that mom. KWIM? Believe me majority of the time while I am doing these things I am thinking man I wish Mo could give him a bottle, or it is so much easier to pull some food out of the cupboard and be done with it. but I chose the road less traveled and you know what it is not easy doing everything the hard way and being by yourself. I seriously do not know ONE person in real life that cloth diapers, nursed this long or makes baby food. It is a lonely road.
I feel like so many people think I am Martha Stewart or something. I am not. Yes, I can cook, craft. The only one that I am fairly good at is cooking. Yes, I make stuff from scratch but its because I am very stubborn and I am determined to figure out how to do it. Plus, it is a running theme today... I am cheap. It is cheaper to make a cake with the ingredients instead of buying a couple boxes. Now I have done it so many times it is just as easy for me to whip something up real quick.
Crafting. HA. what a joke I am. Yes I can figure something out but I never get any of it done. seriously the to do list is like a kajillion miles long. Instead I just don't do anything.
What i have figured out in writing this all out is 1. I'm cheap. 2. I have an insane amount of fear stopping me. I am so afraid of not being the best or whatever it is that day that I don't do anything. Epiphany's man. I am so afraid of striking out and not sinking a homer that I'd rather just stay here in my rut. Then I see other people with things that I'd like to do or something. then starts the jealousy and the self hate.
Good Grief I am a mess.
so if you have read this. please I am begging you to pray for me. I clearly need it. Yikes.
gosh i am sorry I just bored you all with all my first world problems but it needed to get out there. I can't promise this will be the last one but I am going to try and make some changes for the better.
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Right now.
Right now as I type this up on my phone... I am nursing my lil' man. Yes, I'm tired. Yes, I would love to be sleeping. Yes, tomorrow will most likely be rough.
But
I would not trade this for all the world. One day my lil' man won't want me. It's a hard realization to have. I know the goal it seems to be with every mother is to get them to sleep through the night. I say screw it. Who cares what Joe Schmo's kid did. I have a little boy who one day won't want his mama anymore. I'll be embarrassing or a bunch of other things. For right now I'm his world. His everything. I'm going to take it and try to hold on to it for as long as possible.
Mama's kiss your kids, hug them a little longer. They won't always be little.
Loves to y'all!
Sweet Dreams
But
I would not trade this for all the world. One day my lil' man won't want me. It's a hard realization to have. I know the goal it seems to be with every mother is to get them to sleep through the night. I say screw it. Who cares what Joe Schmo's kid did. I have a little boy who one day won't want his mama anymore. I'll be embarrassing or a bunch of other things. For right now I'm his world. His everything. I'm going to take it and try to hold on to it for as long as possible.
Mama's kiss your kids, hug them a little longer. They won't always be little.
Loves to y'all!
Sweet Dreams
Monday, April 29, 2013
M.I.A.
I have been missing in action for quite awhile now. I wish i could give you some big story about why I have been missing but all I can really say is that I am lazy. It has been on my mind though if that counts for anything.
One thing that has happened since I last posted was that my step-dad passed. He had a heart attack and was gone. It really made me realize how life can be taken away from you in just a blink of an eye.
With his passing it has made me think about my own health quite a bit. Heart problems and problems of those nature run in my family. I know my step dad wasn't my blood but it runs in both families. Anyways my health has been on my mind a lot lately. I actually have a doctor appointment to get myself all checked out this week. My goal this time isn't to be skinny I just want to be healthy. I want to be able to keep up and tire out lil' man when the time comes. I don't just want to be sitting on the benches all tuckered out. I want to be showing him how its done. He isn't walking yet... emphasis on yet. He will be soon so I need to get my butt in shape. I want to be healthy but if I happen to get a smokin' hot bod along the way... so be it. hahahhahahahha
I have signed up for the Joggermom Marathon. What it is essentially that you have one month to run 26.2 miles. That is less than 6 miles a week. 1 mile a day and you are done! Awesomesauce.
Another thing that really spoke to me is that 10% of the proceeds go to the American Heart Association. I would love to do more with that cause as it is near and dear to my heart.
I am telling y'all and putting it out there that I am doing this. I am going to try to update more and make sure that I do this. I lack in follow through very badly. So if you guys have to hear about my walk/run/jog everyday for like the next month or so I apologize now... :) Since we moved we are no where near a gym so if you have any workouts or anything that can be done at home to go along with the marathon. Let me know!!
Have a great day! I promise I'll be back soon!
One thing that has happened since I last posted was that my step-dad passed. He had a heart attack and was gone. It really made me realize how life can be taken away from you in just a blink of an eye.
With his passing it has made me think about my own health quite a bit. Heart problems and problems of those nature run in my family. I know my step dad wasn't my blood but it runs in both families. Anyways my health has been on my mind a lot lately. I actually have a doctor appointment to get myself all checked out this week. My goal this time isn't to be skinny I just want to be healthy. I want to be able to keep up and tire out lil' man when the time comes. I don't just want to be sitting on the benches all tuckered out. I want to be showing him how its done. He isn't walking yet... emphasis on yet. He will be soon so I need to get my butt in shape. I want to be healthy but if I happen to get a smokin' hot bod along the way... so be it. hahahhahahahha
I have signed up for the Joggermom Marathon. What it is essentially that you have one month to run 26.2 miles. That is less than 6 miles a week. 1 mile a day and you are done! Awesomesauce.
Another thing that really spoke to me is that 10% of the proceeds go to the American Heart Association. I would love to do more with that cause as it is near and dear to my heart.
I am telling y'all and putting it out there that I am doing this. I am going to try to update more and make sure that I do this. I lack in follow through very badly. So if you guys have to hear about my walk/run/jog everyday for like the next month or so I apologize now... :) Since we moved we are no where near a gym so if you have any workouts or anything that can be done at home to go along with the marathon. Let me know!!
Have a great day! I promise I'll be back soon!
Friday, March 22, 2013
H54F!!! 3/22
Wow!!! I can't believe it has been a week already. Man, this growing up stuff makes the days just fly by!
The highlights of my week thus far! Keep in mind my Friday is Sunday night. Our weekend is Monday - Wednesday.
1. The table is finished! Oh yeah! Looks great! Mo wants to add another coat of poly on the top and I want to distress the legs a little. Make it more beach white. If that makes sense. All in due time.
2. Lil' man's room is 97% finished. Just need to hang up one more decoration and everything else that needs to be done will be on my oh so loving husbands shoulders. :) i.e. refinishing the toy box, crates for his dresser, book shelves behind the door.
3. Used my food processor. Made some baby food and made a delicious dip. I'll post that very soon. I think I will try to make my famous carrot cake next. I honestly can't wait to not have to hand shred carrots.
4. I've figured out how I'm going to do the master bedroom curtains. My plan is to use ::drum roll please:: drop cloth. Yeah, the stuff they put on the floor to catch paint. Super cool, right? My idea is to make an ombré curtain in brown. So chocolate to the natural drop cloth color. I will probably have to put some blackout fabric on the back of it. Since Mo is a night dweller. lol. He works nights and sleeps in the daytime. When I make it it I will for sure make a post about that.
5. I have some new goals coming up. I'm going to make a post about those goals I need some accountability in my life. ;)
So how has your week been?!
Leave me a comment and let me know y'all!
The highlights of my week thus far! Keep in mind my Friday is Sunday night. Our weekend is Monday - Wednesday.
1. The table is finished! Oh yeah! Looks great! Mo wants to add another coat of poly on the top and I want to distress the legs a little. Make it more beach white. If that makes sense. All in due time.
2. Lil' man's room is 97% finished. Just need to hang up one more decoration and everything else that needs to be done will be on my oh so loving husbands shoulders. :) i.e. refinishing the toy box, crates for his dresser, book shelves behind the door. 3. Used my food processor. Made some baby food and made a delicious dip. I'll post that very soon. I think I will try to make my famous carrot cake next. I honestly can't wait to not have to hand shred carrots.
4. I've figured out how I'm going to do the master bedroom curtains. My plan is to use ::drum roll please:: drop cloth. Yeah, the stuff they put on the floor to catch paint. Super cool, right? My idea is to make an ombré curtain in brown. So chocolate to the natural drop cloth color. I will probably have to put some blackout fabric on the back of it. Since Mo is a night dweller. lol. He works nights and sleeps in the daytime. When I make it it I will for sure make a post about that.
5. I have some new goals coming up. I'm going to make a post about those goals I need some accountability in my life. ;)
So how has your week been?!
Leave me a comment and let me know y'all!
Saturday, March 16, 2013
brittany bucks
So I hate packing and unpacking. True story.
Who doesn't, right?!
I will pay someone one million Brittany bucks to finish all the unpacking and organizing. I just want it all done. Like .:poof:. All done.
Doesn't work that way. :/
*also... Brittany bucks are redeemable for smiles and pats on the back. :) maybe I could throw in a thumbs up too for good measure.
Yes, I'm using my unfinished wood table. Yes, my dogs are asleep on couch. My new house doesn't feel like home yet. :(.
Oh and yes I am procrastinating!
Who doesn't, right?!
I will pay someone one million Brittany bucks to finish all the unpacking and organizing. I just want it all done. Like .:poof:. All done.
Doesn't work that way. :/
*also... Brittany bucks are redeemable for smiles and pats on the back. :) maybe I could throw in a thumbs up too for good measure.
Yes, I'm using my unfinished wood table. Yes, my dogs are asleep on couch. My new house doesn't feel like home yet. :(.
Oh and yes I am procrastinating!
Friday, March 15, 2013
H54F! 3/15
Hola! So I'm just checking in real quick in between the madness.
1. We've been in the new house a week tomorrow! Wow! Time has flown by. I feel like nothing is done but I know I'm getting somewhere.
2. My wonderful amazing husband bought me KitchenAid 13 cup food processor. I found it for half price because it is "refurbished". Score!
3. Well, this is probably last week but I'm still excited... We went to drop off stuff to donate at a local charity thrift store. We usually don't go in but today I felt the need. On this special wonderful day I found an soft serve ice cream maker. BRAND NEW!!! Just been opened. Okay it was missing a stupid little piece that is nothing but an extra. But you can tell it has never been used. Anyway. I had my eye on it for a while but it is usually 100 buckaroos. Couldn't justify that. This time it was 39.99 plus it all went to an amazing charity. Can't beat that!
4. You'd better redneckanize. Lol. I wish I had a picture but my husband is building us a new table and benches for out kitchen table. As of this morning it is no longer sitting in my kitchen on sawhorses. So many different projects going on at once.
5. We cancelled our cable. I'm excited about this. It is still a little rough right now but we will get used to it. I did download Hulu so hopefully that'll help.
So that is semi what is going on. So much really. Completely overwhelmed and procrastinating.
A lot of awesome things of DIY and recipes will be coming up once we are all unpacked.
GET EXCITED!!!
.: so I can't help myself...here is a picture of Harold:.
1. We've been in the new house a week tomorrow! Wow! Time has flown by. I feel like nothing is done but I know I'm getting somewhere.
2. My wonderful amazing husband bought me KitchenAid 13 cup food processor. I found it for half price because it is "refurbished". Score!
3. Well, this is probably last week but I'm still excited... We went to drop off stuff to donate at a local charity thrift store. We usually don't go in but today I felt the need. On this special wonderful day I found an soft serve ice cream maker. BRAND NEW!!! Just been opened. Okay it was missing a stupid little piece that is nothing but an extra. But you can tell it has never been used. Anyway. I had my eye on it for a while but it is usually 100 buckaroos. Couldn't justify that. This time it was 39.99 plus it all went to an amazing charity. Can't beat that!
4. You'd better redneckanize. Lol. I wish I had a picture but my husband is building us a new table and benches for out kitchen table. As of this morning it is no longer sitting in my kitchen on sawhorses. So many different projects going on at once.
5. We cancelled our cable. I'm excited about this. It is still a little rough right now but we will get used to it. I did download Hulu so hopefully that'll help.
So that is semi what is going on. So much really. Completely overwhelmed and procrastinating.
A lot of awesome things of DIY and recipes will be coming up once we are all unpacked.
GET EXCITED!!!
.: so I can't help myself...here is a picture of Harold:.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Time Out
Oy Vey!
So I won't be able to post for the next week... Hopefully sooner. As I told y'all last time we are moving. It was supposed to be the end of March but now we are doing it this weekend!! Eeeekk?!? Super overwhelmed but crazy amazing excited.
The reason I can't post. Well, I guess I could like I am now but it's on my phone. Nobody got time fo dat. Anyways the cable provider here has made a mistake and cancelled it here even though it was supposed to stay on till April. The new place we can't get someone out there till next week. So bummer.
I have tons of DIY stuff for the new place coming up. So be ready. I can't wait to take a nice bubble bath in my new big tub. I think I'll Pinterest how to make some. Why not?
If y'all have any tips for moving let me know!!!
Have a great week!!!!
So I won't be able to post for the next week... Hopefully sooner. As I told y'all last time we are moving. It was supposed to be the end of March but now we are doing it this weekend!! Eeeekk?!? Super overwhelmed but crazy amazing excited.
The reason I can't post. Well, I guess I could like I am now but it's on my phone. Nobody got time fo dat. Anyways the cable provider here has made a mistake and cancelled it here even though it was supposed to stay on till April. The new place we can't get someone out there till next week. So bummer.
I have tons of DIY stuff for the new place coming up. So be ready. I can't wait to take a nice bubble bath in my new big tub. I think I'll Pinterest how to make some. Why not?
If y'all have any tips for moving let me know!!!
Have a great week!!!!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Life update
Hey!
I know, I know. I've been pretty non existent lately, huh?!
Well, here is my update!!!
We are moving!!! Less than a month now! Eeeeekkkk so much to do!!!
Poor, Mo. I have really put a huge to- do list on him. Right now he is working on a table and benches for a kitchen/dining room. I don't know why but I've always loved them. I'm so lucky to have a skilled carpenter as a husband.
Well, Lent has started. I started a little late because I totally spaced about Ash Wednesday. I try to always give something up for lent. Last year I gave up booze...but... I was pregnant so I don't think it counted. Lol.
Lent is how I gave up soft drinks. I gave them up for lent and never looked back best decision ever. This year I'm giving up bread. Yikes!!! It is tough! I'm still eating carbs though well kinda. I had pasta and wraps and sweets. I never really realized how much bread I eat. Seriously!
It is a insignificant sacrifice compared to what the Big Man did for us.
I know, I know. I've been pretty non existent lately, huh?!
Well, here is my update!!!
We are moving!!! Less than a month now! Eeeeekkkk so much to do!!!
*she needs a little outside work but she's a beaut on the inside*
Oh, did I mention huge fenced in yard so I don't have to leash my dogs every time they have to potty? SCORE!!!!
Poor, Mo. I have really put a huge to- do list on him. Right now he is working on a table and benches for a kitchen/dining room. I don't know why but I've always loved them. I'm so lucky to have a skilled carpenter as a husband.
Well, Lent has started. I started a little late because I totally spaced about Ash Wednesday. I try to always give something up for lent. Last year I gave up booze...but... I was pregnant so I don't think it counted. Lol.
Lent is how I gave up soft drinks. I gave them up for lent and never looked back best decision ever. This year I'm giving up bread. Yikes!!! It is tough! I'm still eating carbs though well kinda. I had pasta and wraps and sweets. I never really realized how much bread I eat. Seriously!
It is a insignificant sacrifice compared to what the Big Man did for us.
is it just me or does this bread make your mouth water too??
oh its just me.
So, whats going on in your lives?!
Saturday, February 16, 2013
H54F 2/15
Hope y'all had a Good Friday! I'm running a little behind and running on that midnight oil.
So here it goes...
1. I finally have a full stock of cloth diapers! We will be up and running in no time!
2. The Azaleas are in bloom right now. They are absolutely gorgeous!!!
3. The Lorax. Omg. This movie is so good. Go watch it. You won't be disappointed.
4. Naked juice. Yummy
5. Neosporin Lip Health. I have been fighting off this sinus junk for what seems like forever now. I'm one of those ppl that when they get sick their lips get really dry, chapped and peeling. This is the only stuff that makes them better. Check it out. Great for dry lips!!!
I don't have a food post today. Sometime soon. I'm just tooooo tired!!!
Good Night All!!!
So here it goes...
1. I finally have a full stock of cloth diapers! We will be up and running in no time!
2. The Azaleas are in bloom right now. They are absolutely gorgeous!!!
3. The Lorax. Omg. This movie is so good. Go watch it. You won't be disappointed.
4. Naked juice. Yummy
5. Neosporin Lip Health. I have been fighting off this sinus junk for what seems like forever now. I'm one of those ppl that when they get sick their lips get really dry, chapped and peeling. This is the only stuff that makes them better. Check it out. Great for dry lips!!!
I don't have a food post today. Sometime soon. I'm just tooooo tired!!!
Good Night All!!!
Friday, February 8, 2013
H54F!!!! 2/8
High Five for Friday!!!!
Hope y'all had a good week! I know I did!!!
Hope y'all had a good week! I know I did!!!
1. Y'all I have found my new drink!!! A skinny chai latte with a shot of espresso! Delicious! If you like me are a lover to the pumpkin spice latte. Try this ... it will get you through till next fall.
2. Mo took me on a surprise date. Found a baby sitter and everything. It was amazing! Our first time out as parents. I got to where my favorite heels. My patent leather red high heels. LOVE.
3. Mo made me a little flag holder by our front door. Now all of S. Georgia know I bleed blue! Not that there were really any doubts. lol
4. A picture from our date. Goodness Gracious isn't he a handsome man!! I am SO lucky.
5. I made a ton of new recipes... I think was my favorite. Philly CheeseSteak Stuffed Peppers. Post Here!
Tell me about your week!!!
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